Like 3 months after I wrote that entry about death I almost died, but honestly it wasn't as bad as I thought It was going to be. It was kinda like going to sleep. You just get really really tired. I'm not afraid of death anymore though. I think that that needed to be said.

So I've been thinking alot about life and death lately. Mainly because of Tacey. I keep having these horrible thoughts, I keep seeing the look on her face when she was lying in that coffin, I keep wondering what state of decay her body is in, lying 6 feet under, it's still unimaginable to me that she hasn't taken a breath in 2 months, I guess I'm a ( Read more... )

So the Canada trip is in 3 days, well 2 if you don't count the day we leave. I still have to pack, i'm going to get my car tuned up at 8am in the morning, which sucks. My room is still a mess, but I worked on it a lil' bit. Went out to eat with mom today and that was cool we chatted away about the wedding and such things. As far as I know July 14th ( Read more... )

So I'm going to Canada, woo hoo!

haven't been to sleep yet. Had one of those 3 hour conversations with Bradley that actually started at 3am. I think that we did accomplish alot though. Even though nothing really got solved I said alot of things that I wanted to say and I think he did also. I feel better about it at least. Still feeling shitty about myself, but oh well, I'm gonna ( Read more... )

yeah so hung out with Daniel today, that was cool. We talked about alot of things that I really needed to get off of my chest. Yeah he's the greatest

Yesterday was so awsome. I don't think that it could have been any better. Went to Lexington and went shopping with Amanda, by the who, those stupid knee highs didnt' work out, um yeah. Then when I came back Me, Bristol, Leslie and Mike all went down to the second floor and played around with shiatsu, shaolin, and akido. It was fun. I really need ( Read more... )

Brad and I broke up, and Oliver is dying.

Here I am again, trying my damnedest to write away the pain that I can't really express otherwise. I miss Tacey. She was my friend and I miss her. Her family is upstairs right now getting her things together. They seem to be trying to make the best of it.Few tears, lots of hugs.I want to go speak to them, but I'm afraid i'll cry. I just can't get ( Read more... )

mmmmk, I'm over it.