fuck ive been thinking how old im starting to get.. dang im going to be 21 next year. i remember when i was small, i always wanted to grow up. have my own place and car. and everything well be fine. now since im finally the person i always wanted to be when i was small, i finallly realize childhood was the best years of my life. you just dont care ( Read more... )

well its been going good for me in bc. but fuck buying books theres is a bitch. you even need to by your own scan trons. well this weekend was crazy. almost got caught by cops. well i had a feeling that something was wrong. i even told chris that. well besides that im starting to practice the guitar almost everyday, im actually improving, im ( Read more... )

well im in bc now fuck ya!!! well i finally thought about my major, and its music,so the whole computer science thing isnt for me really, i mean alot of fucking math. i dont even know how to do fractions, and i know a little bit of geometry,thanx to mrs.appperti or how you fucking spell it. i want to got to music producer. and learn to be a song ( Read more... )

i havent been on lj for a while...well all ive been doing is trying to get my life together. trying to get a job, im hoping going to bc and start this week or something,if there is time; well friday i had alot of fun. went to the casino with scott angie chris and angies parents.i like to say thanx to angie and angies parents for letting me go. now ( Read more... )

while lately all ive been doing is trying to get into college. but its been fucking hard.westwood try to fuck over my parents with a 53thousand dollar loan. fuck im so fucking lucky that i didnt went to that fucking school. i mean it would of been nice,the that mother fucker name mr. miller told my parents that it was alright to sign it. fucking ( Read more... )

christmas the time of year where some people get really hyped up for. this year; and the first time of my entire life, i was sad, really sad, i was drunk, but the beer didnt do any good. early in the summer, i was excited as fuck, cuz this could of been the first time since 3 or 4 years that my whole family had a xmas. but i was so fucking jinx.. ( Read more... )

Your body may be gone. I'm gonna carry you in ( Read more... )

fuck thinking about it i should of kept the job i was working during the summer,and saved it up. cuz im going to college next month. i have alot of shit to do this next 2 weeks,and wats worst its the fucking holidays. first i have to get my diploma from discovery and get my permit,this is happening tomorrow which is monday,plus i have to go to that ( Read more... )

my grandma past away on tuesday at 130 in the morning. i cannot believe this shit is happening. it has been about 4 months since my cousin past away. now my grandma,my second mom died. i was there for her last breath just telling her to hold on. so she can see me grad for college and have my life together. and see our family become even bigger. she ( Read more... )

shit really being fucking sober sux for i cannot fucking sleep. i try to stop thinking but i cant. i stress out on alot of stuff on my mind all the time even before i sleep. damn no bud for about a month and two,and im starting to cut back on cigs,which is a good thing. but the thing is my cousin is smoking abit of cigs. shit really who ever i ( Read more... )