I think I have blind spots in my vision. I was looking all over for my planner, but just a few minutes ago noticed that it was sitting right next to my computer. This happens a lot!

I am so in the mood for sushi! I'm going to check local coupons to see if they have sushi, then convince Chris to go with me!

The visited country map in a previous entry came out screwed up. This one is the accurate one:


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I finally subscribed for internet service at my home, and since princeaeneas sent me an LJ nudge I'll see if I can get back in the habit of writing here again. My sister just flew back to CA after visiting me for a week. It was very nice having her here. A close female friend and family member all in one. When we were around other people, it was very ( Read more... )

Thunderstorms seem to echo the energy of crying hard about something painful or an intense emotional and physical connection with a mate or fighting hard with and loving a person at the same time. Thunderstorms understand and commiserate. And so they provide me comfort and catharsis whenever they visit.

Everything in my life seems wrong right now. Makes me wish I lost my ability to take anything seriously. Life would be so wonderful if my emotions could be turned off, and I relied only on memory, logic, and physical sensation to help me get by. I would be so happy, the happiest person on earth. So I wouldn’t feel that I was the happiest person on ( Read more... )

Change is inevitable, but so hard to stomach sometimes.

Now I know how to get myself out of the house to go to my boring 5 hour evening class every Monday. Starve myself for a day, and then order whatever I desire for takeout before heading to campus. Today--Squid and Preserved Vegetable from Shuang Cheng!!!! Yum!!!! I am so hungry!!!!!!

I think I would like to have children someday. But when? At this point in my life, the thought of committing to another being from infancy to adulthood scares me. I feel selfish stating this, but I cannot imagine myself giving to someone, as much as a mother should give to her child. When I felt this way 10 years ago, I did not feel bad because I ( Read more... )

When you feel the anxiety starting to grow inside you again,
start packing it into a little ball inside your chest
and when the ball gets compressed enough
throw your reigns on it, release it, and ride it out.