Two ideas to mull over: (1) One of my patterns is to either run toward or away when I get anxious or feel insecure about significant relationships. I need to get to a point where I can just stay where I was, before I freaked out, and deal with the problem, or perceived problem, right there. Doing what I have been doing only irritates the ( Read more... )

I'm losing focus. My mind wants to let itself float and I want to just follow along with it again. I've gone my Barnie robe on and a warm wool blanket over my feet. I'm sitting on my bed, propped up with blankets and pillows. I like this, so I'm changing plans. Salsa at 7. Leave house by 6:45pm. Before 6:45pm, anything goes!

I woke up at 10am, as intended, instead of remaining in bed and then falling asleep again as is typical. Created a schedule for today so that I have little goals to shoot for ( Read more... )

I feel like I've been living life through a veil for the longest time, and now I am finally aware of this veil, because I am ready to begin living life without it. It used to protect me, but now it only serves to hinder me from being a responsible and "with it" human being. It is why I am late to things (or don't even show up at all) all the damn ( Read more... )

I'm really impressed with the ability of Edy's Dreamery Ice Cream to make delicious and creative flavors THAT WORK! This one that I am experiencing now is their Tiramisu. Not that this one is particularly creative, but here's what I give them credit for - THEY DID IT RIGHT! Several months ago, I had Tiramisu ice cream from another premium ice ( Read more... )

I friggin vooped out my tampon just a few minutes ago. It was an interesting experience. It felt like I was pooping, except it was coming out of a different hole.

I went to First Ave yesterday for their Salsa night. Had fun until the last two people I danced with. Am I becoming a dance snob? The thing is, I will dance with whoever asks me to dance, regardless of how well they dance, even if it's boring to dance with them. BUT, each song they play stretches out FOREVER!!!!!!! Everyone was dancing with ( Read more... )

I am seeing aspects of my life slowly take healthy form. It didn't happen by accident though. It's been 10 years of hard work. First part of this period of time was jaggedy and messy, middle of it a very slow but positive trend, toward the end of this time the rate of the slope began to increase, and in this last year, kaboom! Still adjusting ( Read more... )