I don't know what to do...I seem to grow worse day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I can't stand living like this. I need somebody to talk to. I really need a good friend that can just... understand. One who's not willing to judge, but willing to help. I've cried alone for too long.

Life is not fucking fair.

I don't know what to do, I can't stop thinking about him. I feel so alone.

I love how nobody uses LJ anymore, like ever. Oh well, at least I get to vent somewhere and people will neeeverr know it's me. So, I'm 2nd seed in tennis this year, it's pretty freakin' awesome!!!

The phrase "You never know what you've got until it's gone". It's true.

I will miss him dearly, I hope he's safe.

So, after looking back on all my journals, I can see the immaturity in my writing. It's quite frank actually, if you were unaware of my age, you could totally guess it according to those journals. I want to apologize for whoever I may have offended due to whatever I may have said. I would go through and delete those journals, but honestly I don't ( Read more... )

Well, i'm not sure where to begin.
I hate band at the moment...mostly because the trumpets make it a very unpleasant experience for me. I swear, they purposely like to piss me off, it makes me so angry.
First of all, Devon needs to die. He is a disgrace to the trumpet section, to be called a trumpet...i wish he would quit, we would be so much of a ( Read more... )

this is going to be very short.

2 DAYS = BAND CAMP.
i'm psyched. c:

the end !

xPanicfeverx (1:20:09 PM): ha.
xPanicfeverx (1:20:10 PM): omg.
xPanicfeverx (1:20:32 PM): we were practicing on the stage in the auditorium, standing, marking time and stiff.
xPanicfeverx (1:20:34 PM): stuff*
xPanicfeverx (1:20:54 PM): amnd Reamey and my old section leader Daniel, who was like "god", came by.
xPanicfeverx (1:21:00 PM): and they were ( Read more... )

Hokay, so, band practice today was a little better. Not a drastic improvement from the trumpets, but I must admit that they sound a thousand times better than they did last week... thank god that's over.

The only thing, there are two problematic trumpets. I hate to say/type this, but Zaida isn't half bad with marking time... or playing loud,  even ( Read more... )