It's been raining alot, and this new acoustic cd of the Spill Canvas is stellar. And while I casually drink myself to oblivion, I guess we can only smile. And summer is coming, and it's gonna be fun. And friends are coming home, but will it be different. And Bradford's right, the lines have been drawn in the sand. And it will change from how ( Read more... )

...it's i can't stand you!" plus-44 ( Read more... )

today god waged a private war with the world, in some distant land and only the flashes of his lightning srikes could be seen in the distance. and it was amazing ( Read more... )

things move way to fast some times for me. It's l.ike its all the dots are connected before i can figure out where to start. i have made some cutbacks in my life as i begin to realize what growing up is all about, im managing my money, looking at a future, ready to live for the first time ever solely alone. workshop is this week and i know its ( Read more... )

Am i a nice guy? do i not always try to fucking please everyone? it seems like i am always bending over backwards to please one person or another but yet thats never good enough for some people. apparently, i hold no credibility with those that i care about. everytime some bitch ass rumor is started or some retarded "he said she said" shit is ( Read more... )

This is so fucking sickening. I am pathetic in my whiny excuses to put a band-aid on when stitches are required. Call the doctor tim, this time it’s an emergency. All those old wounds have opened again. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. I fucking hate this, I hate myself, I hate that I get like this, I hatye the fact that I drink so much that I am stupid ( Read more... )

i feel like im gliding right now, moving faster than the speed of light and i love it ( Read more... )

we are warriors... after around 80 dolllas of alcohol me and paul return like knights from the crusades. WE are fucking warriors. we drank soooo fucking much, and it makes me feel good. in fact who mnows how much we drank but it was free so i dont worry. it's nice to lose yourself in a sea of dudes looking for a girl just drunk enough to sleep ( Read more... )

this all comes to you live after a night of way too much guitar and poison's "every rose has its thorns." I really like that song, it completely describes how i feel right now and let me tell you all, i am a complete mess. I am having nightmares, well not really nightmares like im being stabbed or chased by a guy with a chainsaw but like scenes ( Read more... )

she sees me when i look away and i see her when shes not looking. My breath stops with the dead beat of my heart. MY eyes fall away to hide the pain they show. im like a heroin addict working for the DEA. I can't help myself. I am biting my lip till there in nothing left but the taste of blood. Me hands want to move to her as if they were ( Read more... )