arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! why do i feel the need to save justin? he doesn't need saving. he makes his own choices for his own life. yet i feel they feircely affect my own. what is he doing? why won't he call me? are my girls ok? WHAT THE FUCK IS HE THINKING!? but the thing is that i have a pretty good idea i know what hes thinking, a pretty good idea ( Read more... )

i have been sleeping in a room with no windows for the past two months. i think it is doing something strange to my psyche. i've been having the most vivd dreams. some are frighteningly real--and most are just down right frightening. i had a dream last week about justin and i going skydiving and i was so scared on the plane, and he kept saying 'you ( Read more... )

looking back over years of entries i realize how at every step of the way along my life i have thought that i knew it all, thought that i had it all figured out, thought that i was some poetic genius, thought that i was older than my years ( Read more... )

bleeding on a beach
silent full moon
pulling tides
inner and outer
a trinity of the femenine
the tide 
the moon
me
patrichary is a lie.

the bredth and beauty of life ( Read more... )

checking in ( Read more... )

hello all, i appologize if this post takes up your entire friends page. i am not so well versed in html and don't quite know how to only post a few pictures and make a link to the rest ( Read more... )

From an e-mail i sent a few days ago to the people with whom i went on the Mission of Peace to Nicaragua.Hello all you little rays of light ( Read more... )

and the seasons, they go round and round
and the painted ponies go up and down.
we are prisoners on the carosel of time...

fall equinox= generous green surrendering silently to subdued hues of amber. the forest takes its last breaths before metemorphisis, dying, and death.

fall is my favorite season

i am looking at you and you are sleeping. eyes shut and peaceful. mouth in a half grin. what are you dreaming? it is mid afternoon. i am awake and merioring that grin. the day is alive. green. breathing. feet sticking out of the blanket and all. You are so Beautiful. i'd miss the green of your eyes if it weren't for these huge windows that let the ( Read more... )