So confused. It's like sometimes I hate him with just every fiber of my being, every piece of me capable of anger and hatred feels it towards him. It is fueled by him, it didn't even exist in me before him. It's only happened a few times, but today was one of those times ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot about killing myself ( Read more... )

The idea of "broken" kills me sometimes. The idea of fixing something that may or may not be even worth "fixing" because there's probably no such thing as "broken" only... wrong ( Read more... )

will you just STOP FUCKING WITH US? Please. I'll beg you. I'll get down on my fucking knees and beg you. Just let us live our goddamn lives without your lies and accusations. Leave me alone. Let me just be happy without all of this extraneous shit. Let me believe that you are a good person and not just someone who gets off on destroying other ( Read more... )

I couldn't do it. I couldn't allow someone to go to face those kinds of consequences whether they deserved it or not, whether it was because of something I did do or something I didn't do. Even if I hate her. Even if I wish I hated her. I couldn't do it. So I stopped him. Does that make me a coward, or a hero, or just a general loser?

I love you. And it was enough for me that you loved me back. Now its gone, and I'm incomplete.

Sometimes it's important not to forget the bad times. Sometimes I think I can appreciate this happiness so much more than most people because I've seen the opposite so much ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking about him. He's just... there... and wonderful... and I don't *want* to stop thinking about him. What a silly silly thing, this. Humans have so little control over themselves...

I can't believe one day I'm going to have to let this go.
God. Love? Damn.

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Facebook messages in the middle of the day? the night? the thought process ( Read more... )