What the hell is wrong with me?

a lot of the time, I feel like I haven't changed much over the course of my life. Then I read something or I talk to someone and I realize that actually, I'm extremely different. lots of things that used to be really interesting to me are not anymore, there are people I used to tell everything to who I hardly see anymore or know anything about ( Read more... )

I've been having trouble falling asleep. I think it's because I'm alone in my bed, alone in my apartment, alone most of the day. I feel like I spend an inordinate amount of time alone. I guess it's obvious that like, I wasn't going to realize it when all my alone time was spent with another person, but damn... I feel like a hermit. Even when I go ( Read more... )

I need to ( Read more... )

first night alone in chicago. I don't really know what to do with myself. so I'm sitting on the floor eating cereal for dinner and watching bad pseudo-scifi. I'll start cleaning soon, I promise.

I do feel better than I did a few hours ago though....

I know it's silly to be acting so dysfunctional... I don't know if I can help it.

i can't sleep... this sucks

I am completely consumed by listlessness. I don't know if it's just because last quarter was tough or if this is going to be how all of spring quarter is going to feel. it's likejust low-grade depression I guess, I just don't feel like doing anything, I'm having a hard time finding anything interesting unless it's TV or sleeping, and even then, ( Read more... )

I just want to rewind to last week or fast-forward to June.

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as a counter-protest to the WBC people who came. although I would have liked to give them a hug too... there were like, hundreds of U of Cers. there were only 6 of them, 2 of whom were kids... It was really actually pretty sad. I wonder what those children understood about what they were holding signs for. I don't know.. the counter protest was ( Read more... )

My body just feels permanently clenched. that's how stressed I am at the moment.

tonight is not looking like it's going to reduce those stress levels at all. fuck.

I want to hit something. very very hard.