I have to update my spanish - one of the members of my costa rican host family just added me on facebook. I was hard put to even answer the short message he added to his friend request. I don't think it made much sense, either. LOL ( Read more... )

I wish all of you who are celebrating this morning a merry merry christmas! :)

Love,
Clouds

if you wanna be part of it, my username is clouds_writes ( Read more... )

Let me start this entry (which will be long) off with saying that I was feeling rather exceptionally suicidal again Friday night. I went to my friend Bertl's house and we had some alcohol and stayed up all night. Then I slept for three hours in his bed, while he slept in the living room on his couch. The drinking and endless talking (we talked 7 ( Read more... )

Ali is alive.
He didn't want contact anymore, but didn't deign to tell me.
I was fucking worried sick about him.
I kept dreaming about finding him.
I saw him dead in my mind.

He just simply didn't want contact anymore.

Some friends really suck ass.

for those of you who speak german - HUGE triggers for SA ( Read more... )

can ANYONE provide me with a good link on DDNOS ( Read more... )

do i need to look back into the mirror of my past? or is what i am doing now, focusing on the present, focusing on the future okay? is it a mixture of both? and how do you find the right ingredients for a rich, fullfilled life ( Read more... )

you are my light in a box
i keep you secretly stored away
and open the box only in moments
of emergency.

the light that you are
shines so brightly it makes all
my worries drift away
so i can sleep
peacefully.

you are my light in a box.
i keep you secretly stored away
and when you're away from me
i still have your light
with me.

why do i find it so hard to make friends. friends that will stay with me through a crisis, will come visit me ip, will be there for me when i'm sick ( Read more... )