i'm getting really sick of this
i just want to fucking sleep
6 24 and i am wiiide awake
what is wrong with me?

guess what i did now...


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this is harder then i thought.

being here makes not having you worse. a lot worse. everything makes me think of you, we have been everywhere around this town, done everything, everywhere. i don't know what i want.

i want to see you though.........

got my nose pierced : )

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seeing him makes it that much worse.

i miss you.

i dunno if i can stay so far away. i want everyday to be yesterday.

i love you.

honestly i'm having a blast.. i was so upset about leaving.. i forgot to remember what college is all about.. having a fucking blast.. i miss everyone at home so much. sam and jill <3<3<3 but i have met some pretty cool people so far. i think this is going to be fun. :)

i dunno if i'm nervous or what, but i have had the worst insomnia i've ever had since this whole leaving thing hit me. it's fucking 4 30 and i'm not even tired in the least. and it's been like this every night. this college thing, not working out so well right now. i can only sleep when i'm with sam.

tonight was my last night of work. so i no longer am officialy a member of the PIG team. i almost cried, because of martine. i can't believe i'm actually upset about leaving that place. but i love the people i work with so freaking much. so tomorrow i say goodbye to the gymnastics girls. monday matt. tuesday kyle. weds hopefully everyone. ( Read more... )

all summer every update, even before summer when we were still in high school, all i said was, it still hasn't hit me. well, it hit me. on sunday morning when i woke up after having a dream about going away and not being able to come back i finaly realized. that these are my last two weeks in MA before it becomes different. last two weeks before ( Read more... )

so last night i missed sams phone call, and he told me to call some other phone, but he'd called be from like 6 different numbers and i didn't kno which one to call, so i just left it cause i think he said he'd call back and i knew he'd at least call when he got home. so 2 rolls around he still hasnt called, so i tried his cell phone which was ( Read more... )