haha..soo it seems this journal hasnt been relived for a while...now that the sidekick is in handy and i have access to myspace...everything is there....but...i miss this journal...i miss coming to b updated on things....when ...or just being able to write here...and not having everyone read about it....im quitting the drs office....it just isnt my ( Read more... )

the day came....u left me....the night was planned i had plans for us...but of kourse things never go to plan....our goodbye wasnt the way u and i wanted it....i wish we could have had a better goodbye...i wish u never spoke to him again.....so u could have stayed behind but y stay behind if ur still in luv....ive gown on to people b4 and ive let ( Read more... )

christmas day....didnt get the best news......words that i never want to hear.....that i almost lost my grandfather....it all happens.....death is a part of life...but when its not really that time...it sux...but then when is a good time to loose someone....especially someone close and that u love soo much ( Read more... )

my entry's on myspace u cant c.....im kinda glad u cant..i love you..i miss u.....i wrote some words i dont mean they seem one thing but its just whats in my head and what we did last nite...was great it was what i needed.....i really needed to just hang out with people i love...too bad it was cut short for others....but....u and i got to just hang ( Read more... )

no matter how much we want something or someone....we'll never have them....unless ur lucky ( Read more... )

its happening....i didnt think......wasnt sure of it at all.....it hadnt crossed my mind.....well a tad.....but....didnt think it b this good.....well not that anything has been established......but....the way u hold my hand....the way u look at me....the way we laugh at stupid lil things no one points out.....but we do ( Read more... )

i didnt think that ....i was gonna get a 20minute visit....first....the call.....dont go tosleep.....im gonna go hang out...but expect me there for a couple ofhours ( Read more... )

haha.....we have to walk over again :( LA Ben's mom doesnt want him crossing the car soo....gotta cross it haha...walking ( Read more... )

so my international ways r going to b re-lived......im kinda nervous....but....ive been waiting all week for this......its what i want....i wanna do it....i really like him ( Read more... )

so im stuck.....its what ive wanted for a while now....but now i have 2 to choose from and im scared im gonna make the wrong choice......its all up to me to make this decision...i dont want too i just want to keep going like thing is going on......hide it.....but its gonna b imposible....half of my friends have met one and the other half have met ( Read more... )