There is a lingering sadness that weighs my heart down. I miss Michael. He shouldn't be gone out of this world. Out of my life was hard enough, but completely gone makes it unfair. Have I done enough to compensate the world for such a loss? I wish he were here. I wish stupid little things didn't make me cry. I'm such a wreck, sometimes.

another one bites the dust...bill has decided he wont be my friend anymore. i'm finally close to completing student teaching and having time to hang out with people and most of my friends are around the world, across the country, dead, or no longer interested in being friends ( Read more... )

I will take a little time each day to "just breathe" and be still.

I do believe, "the greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return ( Read more... )

i would like to feel happiness again.

I have been trying to be positive and upbeat but... nothing is changing.

You've got your mother and your brother ( Read more... )

It seems as though I am sad, all the time ( Read more... )

The hardest part about missing someone who killed themselves is not blaming yourself for their death ( Read more... )

I've been saying that everyday it gets easier but in actuality everyday it gets harder ( Read more... )

I would like to shut down for a while. To close my eyes and find myself laying in a field with you,watching the clouds pass, and merely existing for a moment or two longer in peace.