THIS IS SO MESSED UP

i can't make this easy to deal with. no matter how hard i try. i get through my days okay sometimes.. but today, i just kind of broke down. it hurt to hear your voice. it hurt to hear you say those things. maybe you're right but it doesn't make it okay. it doesn't make it any better. i'm losing grips on the two people i love the ( Read more... )

it's the tail end of the day..

i'm tempted to slump over in my chair and pass out on my desk. i don't even think anyone would notice. sure, maybe a phone call or two would go unanswered. but in all actuality... there's only a couple people left in the office and none of them are going to come up front and check on me. tina is gone for the day. i am ( Read more... )

this is life

MY BOSS PUT IN HER NOTICE AT WORK TODAY...TO MOVE TO FUCKING MICHIGAN. VERY SHORTLY, I WILL BE HATING MY JOB. f my life.

and mr. wilson won't even let anyone in the company have her job. wah wah. i'm going to end up with some 50 year old anal bitch that is going to control my life and make me cry. MAN. tina is leaving. i hope this will make her ( Read more... )

wow. last night was the total equivalent of lame! i got kicked out of the 18+ club [the cheap drinks lured me in] for being TOO DRUNK after having like TWO DRINKS. then i had to sit outside for like over an hour while everyone else drank because they had to buy four more drinks to close out their tab or something? i ate a burrito that made me feel ( Read more... )

you asked me how i would know. well, i know.. and i know why. and hopefully one day, you will too.

i'm going to break down and go to the er today. i can't take it anymore. my throat is so messed up. i can barely talk and i'm tired of not knowing what's wrong. it's fucking killing me. and i'd rather sit in the er for 5 hours and add a few thousand to my medical bills to figure out what's wrong. someone come with =/

i'm officially divorced. that's all i have to say about that.

drinkin' dinosaur juice, watchin' seinfeld, and aar is playing with my hair. better than poking me and calling me fat, i suppose. i'm going up to my sister's today. going to see my daddy tomorrow. I GOT THE JOB THAT I WANTED. i start working for microsoft on the 7th. it looks like everything is going to be a-okay.

i am not doing okay. my daddy is still in the hospital. i'm still under the impression that he's had a heartattack. i'm not really all that sure what's going on. my stomach is tied in knots and i fucking hate crying. being around aar helps. i missed him. even if he is just calling me fat all the time. i am going to go eat macncheese, watch ( Read more... )