so my lovely little jerk of a boyfriend decided that he's going to lancaster today to help our friend mike clean out his backyard. he left me here all alone. i'm sad i couldn't go too. i won't see him til late tonight, maybe 9ish.

i'm upset.

i had cereal this morning. but i wasn't hungry.

today i get to go out with the mom and the sister, i think ( Read more... )

awwww, hun. happy anniversary. haha. i love you. i just thought that i'd let the world knoe. or at least the kids that read my journal. yes.

06-09-04. happy anniversary!!!

you're great. i'm greater. haha.

hey homie, thanks for everything. you're the best thing going on right now. tascha: "you're such an asshole!!!". oscar: "you're sooo bitchy". ( Read more... )

ATTENTION KIDS.

i need prayers. lots of them.

please be a friend. and do the duty.

thanks.

<333333333 tascha.

you knoe that feeling. the one where you talk to a great friend on the phone. someone you haven't talked to in a long time. and even though you have been away from each other for months, it's like nothing has changed at all. you still have that amazing friendship. that unbreakable bond. well, i love that feeling. i got to talk to john-o last night. ( Read more... )

saturday was the church anniversary. so i went. and i'm glad i did. despite everything that has happened, and although i was bummed out about what had happened earlier in the month. the sermon gave me a lot of reassurance.

in a given situation. you do what you feel is the best right?! ... well what if others don't agree with you? what if they take ( Read more... )

you knoe those birds that are wild. you knoe that live out in the open?!

what are they called? public birds?! neighborhood birds?!

who gives a shit.

anyways. so i was cleaning their SHIT, their FECES, their POOP outta my pool today. and i was hosing it off around the backyard floor. so i see them flying over the pool... and before those little ( Read more... )

forgive and forget.

even with all that has been going on in the past couple weeks, for some reason, i can't do that when it comes to my dad. all these years of resentment and hurt just built up over the years. don't fucking tell me you wanted the best for me because things are fucked up already. we can't go back. we can never go back.

i can't wait ( Read more... )

it's finally happened.

i broke down on wednesday night.

it was the works. tears. snot. and a whole lot more tears.

and you knoe what. oscar was there. i needed someone. and he was there.

he's always been there.

depression is a bitch.

i just can't believe i let myself get to the point where i couldn't stop myself from crying. crying. opening myself ( Read more... )

i've been thinking. i say i want to start over all the damn time even knowing that'll never happen. people just don't forget your past. i can't. you can't. i spend so much time trying desperately to run away from everything. but the thing is, everything that has happened has made me who i am today. and i really don't think that's such a bad thing.

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okay people. here's the deal.

people have been asking me to update my livejournal. i didn't realize that.. that many people read about what i have to say. i'm curious to find out who reads it... so...

if you want me to continue writing in my journal.

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