Saw Face to Face tonight on their farewell tour. They are great live, one of the few bands who pull that off. The singer plays guitar like me....lead and rythem mixed. Maybe that explains my love of playing their songs....So yeah, thank you ONCE AGAIN Jeremy for taking me away from my problems for a few hours. Went to Hell's Kitchen for drinks ( Read more... )

i know what i need to do, whats best for my health. but i am not ready to do it because im not ready to move on. i will allow myself to suffer because its indirectly what i want. wanting to be with Geraldine will put me through more hell, but i wont give up. tell me that makes sense...

I Love Little Jimmy. He's the greatest brother anyone could ask for. Ive also got Andy, who i Love and appreciate JUST AS MUCH. Much Love to both of you. Thank you.

i spent a lot of time reading my past journal entries tonight, along with all the comments. i miss how happy and funny i used to be. i laughed my fucking ass off at a lot of the things i read. what i really miss is how everyone used to comment on my shit, not just darcy. its good to know that no matter how bad my life keeps getting, you guys--and ( Read more... )

Geraldine, i will never get over you. you reject me every time you leave me. whether it be when you are with friends or get drunk or what...nevertheless you reject me. only when we are together and alone without any outside person around do you Love me. i cant deal with that. that is not how you deal with things. i know you hate me for what ( Read more... )

so Geraldine and i had a fight on tuesday, but everything worked out. today is what, saturday morning? as of 1am we were no more. her sister bitched at me for what i did, Geraldine wouldnt talk to me, and i felt like absolutely rank ass shit. once i was able to get her to talk to me around 2am, i found out that things were great yesterday. we had a ( Read more... )

what do you do when youve tried your hardest and it doesnt matter to her?
what do you do when youve got nothing left to look forward to?
what do you do when youve become nothing?

So here i am thinking things are finally back on track and im happy again. well im a dumbass cause at about 10pm i got hit in the face with a steaming pile of shit. Geraldine is confused again because she doesnt feel the way she used to before i cheated on her. thats expected. but im am pouring my soul into making this relationship work, and all i ( Read more... )

quit drinking. done ( Read more... )

for the first time in my life i dont know if i even want to go home for the holiday. its the same fucking shit everytime i go there. i bitch, you bitch, no one is happy. i waste money on booze and coffee as i waste time in a bar or dennys. oh its also nice that i cant even give my opinion to someone without getting told to fuck off. the one time i ( Read more... )