I can not sit here and wait for someone who stopped caring about me in less than a week. Its the biggest waste of time. Ive cried too many tears and i dont want to wake up with swollen eyes and a sore throat anymore. It is horrible for my mental and physical health. But i cant stop caring about someone all of a sudden. It hurts to hold on, but it ( Read more... )

Okay here is a basic idea for the both of you...This is my journal. I put how i feel in here so that friends who i dont talk to much can get an update on how im doing. Yes, i am doing pretty badly right now. But if you two want to bitch back and forth, then grow up and fucking call each other. i would put both numbers up on here, but i dont have ( Read more... )

I hate being alone here. the only two people attempting to befriend me are dorks. one of them is the squadron "jester" i guess and no one takes him seriously, but lets him beLIEve they do. The other does nothing but drink. He knocked on my door earlier and when i answered, there was nothing there except for the stench of whiskey hanging in the air ( Read more... )

So now im in California. The WORST part of it that i know of. Dennys is nonsmoking. Walmart closes at 11pm. Theyre both 20 minutes away. Need I say more? I had a decent 3000 mile drive here. Work is okay. I miss my girlfriend. I had a decent time with friends at home who actually made time to hang out with me. Good to know I have a few friends left ( Read more... )

NO ENTRY.
ANOTHER TEST FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL...

this is to test something. im sorry to keep you all in suspense by not updating....keep waiting impatiently.

ok so i just sat here with geraldine and typed a super duper ultra freaking long entry, then erased it. to sum things up, im sitting here with her and it obviously makes me super happy. she picks my nose for me and then makes me eat it. ummmm... yum! she likes to feed me hers too... or i just get them myself. im actually very comfortable about ( Read more... )

Another great day spent with Geraldine. I cant believe how happy i am. I finally put effort into getting what i want, and it couldnt have paid off better. My cheeks fell off today, actually. I gotta get used to smiling again cause it hurts more when i tape em back to my face.

i had a good day, full of smiles and laughing and grinning and stuff & things. i Love my life. If someone told me i could be happier than i am right now, i would strike them down, call them a filthy liar, and pee on their friend's cousin's car. I cant smile any wider, so i know i am super duper happy. it gets no better. god my cheeks hurt.

I have come to the decision that my personal life does not belong on the internet. If anyone should know about it, i will tell them. Thats why its a "personal" life i guess. So anyways, expect random bullshit from me on here, cause thats what dreams are made of. You guys are so lucky i will take time to post meaningless nonsense from now on. It ( Read more... )