Today was a boring day at work. I went on a pizza hut run, and then shortly after eating, i got to go home. What a waste of gas. Im excited about going to Fallon tomorrow, but not too thrilled about 12 on 12 off for 3 weeks. But in the end, anywhere but here is better for me. I am still going strong with no caffeine, and my will to be with ( Read more... )

So I talked to someone today who gave me a lot of hope for me and Geraldine. Im glad that i took the step to talk to her and i know that things are going to work out. I will be here waiting for the day that comes. I havent had caffeine in 5 days! im going to Fallon on Friday for 3 weeks, and i know they have a gym i can go to everyday. I have ( Read more... )

Its 130 am and im still at work. I didnt expect a sunday to last this long. We have a jack job to do still and then we have to service and swing the landing gear. This is lame and I wish i was back in Virginia Beach. I would have been outta work by 1130 and home to Geraldine soon after. I also have a super duper headache from not having caffeine in ( Read more... )

Well the BPO let me get off watch a half hour early. That was cool. So I had some things on my mind i wanted to write before heading home ( Read more... )

Here I am on watch at the barracks. Its not even 7 yet. 5 more hours. I am only on here for a sec. I am bored as hell and no one ever calls me. I could use a phone call. Geraldine didnt call me back. I am sad.

So here i am at 830am on base. I had duty muster today. I got watch from 6-11 tonite and muster again in the morning. Also i have work tomorrow. Basically meaning that 2 trips here each day totals 160 miles. Bullshit. Besides that I am okay. Still having trouble sleeping. I tried to relax and concentrate on a dot in my mind like my ma said, but i ( Read more... )

Lately ive been way too stressed out and emotionally drained to do anything good for myself. I think my tear ducts are about dried up, and my stomach has shrank to the size of a golf ball. I would eat, I know i must, but it makes me sick to my stomach to think about it. In 3 days ive eaten 6 peanutbutter cheese crackers, and 1 greasy cheeseburger ( Read more... )

I went from not drinking for six months back to constant drinking. I am disappointed in the way i am handling things now. It is the toughest thing i think ive ever gone through. I cried for about 20 minutes straight last night. That uncontrollable kind that you cant stop even if you cry. A million thoughts a minute were going through my mind. I ( Read more... )

I know exactly why people put themselves through such hell. I never really knew why or how people could withstand the pain they endured. But now I do, and I will wait. And wait. And wait. It doesnt matter, I will always be here and nowhere else. That is what I concluded after considering my current situation. I care too much to just let go. Thats ( Read more... )

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