Yes im back in California, no im not home yet. The drive sucked yesterday just a bit. I hit snow in Donner Pass (7300 feet elv.) and had to use my tire chains. After a good 50 miles at 30mph, I could take em off and get back up to 80mph. I never thought Id say it, but i feel so much better being back here in hell. I missed my air matress and ( Read more... )

I cant wait to go home. I am so sick of being here in NV and doing nothing but working and sleeping. Im sick of people in general. I cant stand being made fun of all the time. People call me a loser because im still hung up on my exgirlfriend. They say its not good for me to be faithful to a girl that doesnt even want to be with me. She is my ex g/ ( Read more... )

Last night I got out of my room for a long time. I went to the enlisted club and played pool with my supervisor and a few guys from shooters. I had about 5 rum and sprites....it was the first time getting drunk in a while. I dont know why, but I had a really good time for once. I was very unproductive, but it was a release for some reason. Last ( Read more... )

I cant stand waiting for a phone call that never comes. Geraldine, I know you are on the computer everyday checking your myspace thing. I know youre not at work. I feel like shit to know that people you dont know on myspace come before me.

The stars across the sky ( Read more... )

I feel like absolute shit. Im so burnt out on this shift. I sleep the day away and stalk the night. There's no excitement in this town whatsoever. I work and sleep and play at Jerry's. I want to go somewhere I'm happy. There's two choices..Home or home. Detroit or Virginia. I have no friends here. Just people who pretend to enjoy my company because ( Read more... )

So its been a while since i last updated. Ive been busy at work. We work 24 on/24 off. Go in at noon, get out about midnight....come back at 530am until noon....then get 24 hours off. Repeat throughout the week. Im getting really burnt out. Ive been up since 4am thursday, and its now 450am Friday. Ill be here for at least another 3 or 4 hours. I ( Read more... )

I watched a flock of birds today fly so gracefully away with my hopes under their wings. I smiled a bittersweet grin and understood that maybe its what you wanted all along.

I Miss You.

It seems that everyday I wake up, someone else has found some way to give me shit. Today I woke up to find a note on my truck: "Contact base security ASAP." So it's either my naked girl sticker, my American Errorist sticker, or the Military Police sticker. So I need to call them and find out who doesn't like my truck. Oh, lets not forget about last ( Read more... )

So I made it to Fallon in one piece. It sucks so bad here. All I really think about is how miserable I was last time I was here. Its ironic kinda that my second time here I am trying to get back together with Geraldine, just like last time. It is lonlier here than back in Lemoore. So thats it. I cant even sign up on Myspace because the security of ( Read more... )