Well! Who would have thought that I'd ever return to live journal after so many years!! I stopped writing things down, but I used to enjoy it so much! I figured I'd give it another try to see if it still helps me feel better. I guess I grew up a little, and writing my thoughts down seems silly and somewhat dangerous. But, I dont think anyone is ( Read more... )

me and jeremy went to water world today. it was SOOOOOO fun. everythings been normal and good around here for me. my kitty is SO FUCKING CUTE. hes doing absolutly wonderful too. i named him binx, like the cat off hocuz pocus. we saw cody last weekend and spent the night at his new apartment. i miss cody so much :[[[ it makes me really sad that he ( Read more... )

all over myspace ive been seeing these god damn raver kids. and they arent even the creepy 26 year old dudes that never accepted that the rave scene is dead and still goes to the club every night. they are fucking 15 year old girls. every single one of them is a candy kid. theres not one of them that is anything differnt. all these girls have their ( Read more... )

what the hell is everyones fucking problem. macraye got all bitchy with me just cuz i didnt wanna drive up to fucking morrison with her at 11:00 at night, when i have been driving around the whole god damn day. jeremy has to go home at 11:45 and if i went to morrison he would have to leave now because i wouldnt get back until about 12, knowing ( Read more... )

everything has changed so much these past couple of weeks. cody and alexis broke up!!! you dont realize how traumatized this makes me. they are me and jeremy's best friends! we have had sooooooooooooooo many good times and adventures with them. its sad to see this happen. ill still talk to them both all the time, but it wont be cody AND alexis ( Read more... )

i hate sean sooooooooooooooooooo fucking much. everything that comes out of his mouth is so fucking stupid and ignorant. god he thinks he's the shit ever since he started slanging weed. IT ONLY TOOK HIM 5 QP'S TO GET OFF A FRONT. he went under by 80 bucks on at least three of them. he walks around all high and mighty like this drug lord, when hes ( Read more... )

so for the past two days straight me and jeremy have been fighting really fucking bad. we are on a hiatus right now pretty much. i really really dont know what to do. i dont wanna be with him anymore because i just dont feel the love so much now. i wanna go out and do my own shit without having to worry about what anyone is gonna say. but at the ( Read more... )

im in the worst position ever. my heart is telling me one thing, while everyone i ask is telling me another, and my brain is telling me something different as well. i know which one is right, but the other one seems so hard to live without. i dont want to lose another person i love. i dont wanna have change in my life again. i dont want any of this ( Read more... )

so yesterday night sean had an 8 ball of some shit and i litterally had to sit there for 5 hours while they all smoked it in my face. i was so fucking pissed off. im proud of myself for not doing it though. i thought about doing it, but really i just couldnt find the motivation. jeremy smoked a bunch but he didnt pay for it so i really couldnt ( Read more... )

me and jeremy are doing REALLY bad. he tried to break up with me yesterday but i dont exactly know what happened, he just ended up staying. he told me i give him to much affection and he needs his space. and he wanted to break up cuz of the camping trip we took this weekend with cody and alexis. me and jeremy ended up getting in a drunken fight ( Read more... )