and what will i do with you now, dear lj?

>:'(

haven't been so depressed in a long time. reminded once again why i don't tweet.
back hurts, phone shattered, rejected and dejected.

woke up, cried, blocked up an anthole. story of my life.

i try not to engage in self pity because society frowns against it, then i realise i can't remember anything at all. good and bad, mostly bad, i've thrown everything away, and sometimes when other people recall things i have no recollection even i was supposed to be there, supposed to have known. what's your life if you can't remember it, if you ( Read more... )

okay so my exams for this semster are over! fervently hoping for a cap puller.

i didnt think i was a pessimistic person, just cynical. but i guess now you can lump me with the pessimists. the kind of people you blame for finding ways to be miserable, even though i don't know how i do it since i feel it so often i guess i must be doing something ( Read more... )

i have upgraded my state of worry and anxiety to fidgeting and inability to hold attention for any amount of time. and the panic slowly rises. the helplessness. some part of me just wants to lose control physically and flail about in frustration but the rest of me knows that nothing would make my current situation better, so i refrain. but every so ( Read more... )

in a bid to avoid studying, hello i am posting more on lj. this semester has been rather eventfully stressful. and all the poems we covered in critical reading make me really critical of any random drabbles i may produce or conjure up in my head. they seem so small and teenage angsty in comparison. i wonder why in literature we delve so deep when ( Read more... )

so it's over. going back to my resolution earlier i can only blame myself, recently thought i was more valued than that. ah valley of broken promises after two weeks, contradictory behaviour, abrupt 180 degree changes, when will i ever see you again. seems like i'm always facing crunch time each crisis ( Read more... )

where would i go to get rid of you, in my head ( Read more... )