this will be my last journal entry. it seems pointless to update anymore ( Read more... )

March 5, 2005- the day i was released from my prison sentence. it was supposed to be March 15th, but i got off early with good behavior :-). last night was sooo much fun. even before i was grounded i hadnt had that much fun in a long time. gaby came over around 5:30 after i was done watching my sisters and we went and tried to buy cigs, which was ( Read more... )

man does my life blow right now. it hasnt been this bad yet. i got grounded on valentines day for coming home an hour late. i didnt think things could get any worse. wednesday night i went to the heat and clippers game, and last night i went to the motley crue concert with my dad. the grounding has been pretty easy. just when i think things are ( Read more... )

life is amazing. one second you think things are going good and youre loving life and BAM. everything turns to shit. i hate who i am. i hate who im becoming. i hate the way i treat my friends. i hate the way i treat my family. i hate the fact that i have gotten myself into yet another really big whole. im so tired of fucking things up. why cant i ( Read more... )

so me and joe (del rosa) have been talking a lot the past few months. its been pretty cool getting to know him. its been cool hanging out with him, but its not cool when he thinks he's slick. last night we were on the phone and we decided that we were gonna go to sawgrass today and finish up some christmas shopping. he calls me up around 6 today  ( Read more... )

I LEAVE THE 22ND!!! 6 MORE DAYS!!!! WJIORJP NOTHGUTG!!!! HELL YEAH!!!

finally.... i came to a few realizations today. i wont bore anybody with what they are, but i finally figured out what is really important to me. i have made my decision and i feel it is the best one for me. its funny because its the exact opposite of what i thought it would be. all it took was one long ass day and a wonderful conversation with an ( Read more... )

im grounded again. i was ungrounded for exactly 1 month and i had to fuck it up again. saturday night was totally worth it tho. i really dont care if im grounded anymore. this will be my opportunity to focus on the things that really need to be getting done right now. like school, and work. i work 5 days this week, thank god. i dont wanna put up ( Read more... )

aaannnnndddd hes moving to cali next month

i cant remember the last time i got butterflies in my stomach over a guy. it was at least 2 years ago. this guy jed... wow. hes so awesome. our personalities mesh so well, theres just one problem. im like an inch taller than him! that reeeeally bothers me, but o well. if i like him enough i can look past that ( Read more... )