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flames to dust, lovers to friends
this fucking sucks.
i have to stop letting myself love people who can't love me back.
if loving you as a friend is all i'm allowed to do, i guess its what i'll have to do.
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its almost too easy. too easy to love you and know i do, and then all of a sudden easy to convince myself you'd be better of with someone else and give up. i've done it a dozen times by now but i always hold onto this tiny thread of hope. tonight you made me cling to it a little tighter but tomorrow, perhaps a lot looser. i really just want to know ( Read more... ) -
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i love you. i just need to figure out if you love me back. even if you don't i might love you enough to be ok with that. weird. -
2010
this year i will kick ass and take names.
i will not fall for wastes of time.
i will figure us out, sort of...
it will be a good year :) -
twinkie overdose
movies should come with warnings.
"CAUTION: those without someone to hold them all night and tell them they love them should not see this movie."
bahhhhhhhhhhh, but it was good none the less. -
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"its not nasty. its amazing and meaningful!"
well fuck, don't i feel like a gigantic asshole bitch faced jerk now?
it doesn't make it hurt any less though. -
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i had a dream about you last night. this wouldn't be problematic if you weren't fucking someone else, rubbing it in my face, and still wanting to be my friend. it would be even less problematic if i could just be your friend and stop secretly wanting you to realize you could have stuck with me ( Read more... ) -
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it just drive me insane. you started it. you kissed me. i was happy to just be there with another body in the bed. but no. you kissed me. and i guess i wasn't good enough for you and so you found someone younger, thinner, and dumber to be good enough ( Read more... ) -
it makes me sick
why do i do this? put myself in situations i know will not end well. fall for the wrong person and scare them away all without actually ever having them ( Read more... ) -
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i just want him to leave or get over it. but seeing as he is a million times more pig-headed than me i doubt anything will happen.
i just need some mental peace.