belen and guille are leavin saturday. then i get my life back. and i don't have to sit at home anymore like a douche and let stupid things eat my heart out. today is going to be a piece of shit. i don't have any cigarrettes. grr. i'm so sick of today. and my family i need to get the fuck away from them. i hate how much things change and how quickly ( Read more... )

wow sometimes ppl are really dumb and don't realize what is right in front of their faces (again) ! it's crzy to see how i fall right into tthe same old ruts to find nothing has changed. why did i think it would be any different?

great family party today i better get to drink. niagara falls otmorrow. great. ALONE with the family again. ppl are gay

i fucking hate it here. and i hate every fucking one i know right now. sometimes ppl can be so fucking annoying clueless and just plain brain dead! GRRRRRRRRR i fucking hate this place i'm going to blow it up.

today was a crazy day. i feel so weird. i didn't get a call i was expecting and i i got 1 i never expected. well the highlight of my day is the frappacino i get to drink tomorrow morning w/ my morning smoke. ah. o well tomorrow better be better.

so i had many different moods going on today ( Read more... )

goddamn. today we walked up to super freeze to get some free grub and talk to chelsea. we saw tyrone there. and other sweet ppls we know. then to eckerd for some redbull i'm like wired off that shit. shopping tomorrow. fuck yeah! call me bc i love you. haha

i'm in one of those stupid moods where u sit around smoke cigarettes and listen to sad songs while trying to relate them to ur life. maybe only i get in those moods. idk. lately it's been pretty hard for me to pretend to be happy. like ever since tuesday.alls i wanna do is..well not be happy. butt the thing is i do wanna be happy, it's just hard ( Read more... )

AUNT KAREN IS PREGNANT ( Read more... )

i'm a little drunk rigth not and i doot think il rememember this 2maorrow.

i fell rellly bad 4sum1 righ now. he ll live tho right!?

belen and guillermo are such a happy couple, it really pisses me off. i'm not used to being around happy couples. it makes me want to be a part of a happy couple. i want to find a nice, cute, caring boy! lol i know, impossible. i'm so lonely and seeing belen and guille makes me even more mad. i just want to have a boyfriend. a good one. i'm long ( Read more... )