APTF [10/13]
Chapter Ten
He remembers nothing of his childhood but sickness: constant fevers, delirium and coughing fits in the night. He remembers a lot of crying, of hands holding his face in the dark to coax him to eat, of tears falling like rain on his cheeks and hugs of a mother whose face he’s forgotten, to keep him warm. I’m sorry, is the last thing he ( Read more... )
He remembers nothing of his childhood but sickness: constant fevers, delirium and coughing fits in the night. He remembers a lot of crying, of hands holding his face in the dark to coax him to eat, of tears falling like rain on his cheeks and hugs of a mother whose face he’s forgotten, to keep him warm. I’m sorry, is the last thing he ( Read more... )
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Yunho's looking for Jae too string his shattered life together. To hold it in place. Jaejoong can't even find himself. What am I talking about? I have no idea.. Forgive me..
And "Jaejoong" is still looking for revenge.. Doesn't he realise that life now is worse than death for Yunho? But well, I guess Jaejoong will go looking for Yunho now.. And if Yunho survives this, please don't ignore your instincts that something's not right..
3 more chapters!!!
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You're welcome! I had a great time reading this fic.. ^^
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i don't know. don't know. don't the hell know what to say... i know it was hard for JaeJoong... harder than usual (because the situation he is in... is unusual) but to look at it from a simpler POV... he should've at least make things clear. it's bitter, it's odd and it's eerie (yes, it definitely seems so) but it shouldn't be complicated by hidden answers (i wouldn't say lies, for it is not. there is an answer, just untold).
it's still very intriguing... sans the depression i'm starting to feel. it has been too bitter moving along with the characters in here... very. bitter.
can we have the happily-ever-after kind of ending? even if it requires both of them jumping off the building (together. hand in hand)?
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i think jae left without explaining because he thought it would hurt less for both of them, so he left things hanging. he doesn't want yunho to come looking for him anymore and if he'd left some sort of explanation, yunho would probably be more motivated to not give up on him. i also think the absence of the explanation would still provide for them a later avenue for closure, so it symbolizes that jae, even though he's left physically, mentally and emotionally he's still connected to yunho. ^^
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but yes, i understand why Jae just...left. and of course we know...there are always possibilities for them to...get together again(?).
uhm... make it a 'yes'? lolx...
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adult jaejoong was adopted as a child, after he was abandoned by his own mom (the woman whose face he can't remember, that's his real mom), by dead!jae's mom in the midst of her grief. she probably found him, sick and alone, and brought him to the hospital and treated him as compensation for her own lost boy. that's why jae "doesn't have an identity", because he grew up as someone he's really not. he's been masquerading around as kim jaejoong, who's supposed to be dead. ^^
you're right though about jaeho needing each other. they act as each others' flotation devices.
the ghost that hit yunho with the bat though is boy!jae. the REAL kim jaejoong. the dead one. i think that'll be clarified further next chapter. ^^ (i dunno, i haven't really written it out yet keke)
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Does the ghost cling to Jae though? Coz it seemed it like when Jae was around the ghost would stop bothering them. Okay I need to stop asking so many questions and just read. I still have so many I want ask but that's gonna end up as another half page essay T^T
Haha get working with the next chapter! LOL for a moment that baseball bat part, I thought that Yoochun may have knocked Yunho. Then I suspected Changmin because Yunho wouldn't stop and shut up so Changmin decides to knock him out and then I think of ghost!Jae.
Last question! Is it because of adult Jae that ghost Jae has come back to haunt Yunho? Like does adult Jae trigger sth? Or has ghost Jae been haunting Yunho this whole time except this time he's just planning evil things for Yoochun D:
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I feel... drained. ._.
It was such a good read, though. <3
Cleared some stuffs, but made me think more. Hmm.
They all need protection. Of.. uncertainty.
I guess they'd all come face to face with it in the closing chapters.
Thanks for this. ;D
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the ending's still up in the air because my IDEAL ending is causing me trouble. but trust me, there ain't gonna be any sunshine and rainbows by that part.
thanks for reading and commenting~! ^^
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Both are suffering, not coping really well with the separation. Hope they can find a way back to each other.
But what's this? Did ghostboyJae hit Yunho with the baseball bat? And he's haunting adultJae now, in his dreams? Is that what the voice meant, for Jae to watch Yunho die?
What's going to happen next?!
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and yes, ghostboy!jae is on a rampage. that'll be clarified next chapter i think. i think he's not liking being pushed to one side just because jaeho separated. ;D
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