Desire is poison ( Read more... )

I feel so alone. I don't like where I'm at right now. I spent the entire day sleeping and now I'm awake, beyond my desire. I might have to get high so I won't be in my right mind again ( Read more... )

I meant to add this detail earlier but forgot. Last night when I was stoned out of my skull, I suddenly heard a cat meowing outside my door. I opened the door up and a little white/brown kitten came running in. It went immediately to my room and started exploring. I picked it up and gave it some milk, then I put it back outside. It was just really ( Read more... )

Today I glanced over about 4 months worth of old livejournal entries. Watching the progression and downfall, and recurrent downfall is pretty upsetting. I kept telling myself last night to stay alive so I could have everyone over for my b-day ( Read more... )

I'm sorry everyone for being such an immature child. I need to learn to deal with my emotions. I'm sorry I've been a bad friend. Something is wrong with me I think.

Well not much is really new but I felt the desire to post. How is it fucking possible that I see people I know that live 200+ miles away more often than my friends that live practically down the street? It's like everyone's to busy to do stuff with me. I don't know, I just feel like complaining. The Easter gettogether's were so mundane and ( Read more... )

I bought 20 bucks of weed last night from a friend of a friend of friend. I had some for free last night, and spent the rest of the night tapping my feet to Modest Mouse. It was pretty fun. Then I got to try to drive home. Made it home without a scratch. Then I saw someone do it for the first time. I'm not a drugee I swear. I just wanted to ( Read more... )

It sucks having to delete friends of yours off your friends list because they tell your ex about you. I like Julie, but I know she's been telling Linda about me. I don't want Linda to know anything about me. I just don't think it's fair I can't hear what she says about me via friends only posting but my friends will tell her what's going on with ( Read more... )

From source http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/Many of us have been told, “Your problems aren’t that bad. They don’t add up to suicide,” or, “If you only took 15 pills, you weren’t really serious ( Read more... )

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