so things are crappy again....my step mom and my dad are to much soon getting a divorce...i mean it sucks bad not only because they were together for like 6 years..but i live with them...taht forces be to get my car fixed $1000 that i dont have and im going to move in w/ my dad which makes me paying rent when i already owe to much money and then i ( Read more... )

i work tomorrow so i couldnt stay out real late but i did get to hang out with teryl and mandy..it was kewl....there both crazy especially mandy who seems to be fun....we hung out with friends and watched movies and then we got bored with that so we went to dennys where i think yet another guy was hitting on me...i had my liberties up and i think i ( Read more... )

today i got the closure i wanted....instantly i dont feel anything...it wasnt the way i wanted to go about it but its for the best...ive come to a conclusion that the biggest emptiness i have isnt because of a missing comapnionion...i just finished reading the last "left behind" book and i think i thirst a faith of god...i just have so many ( Read more... )

so i stayed up all night doing nothing ya for me.i wanted steph to respond about what she thought was strange about me at rocky but nope didnt happen..oh well so at work today i read the last book of the christian series "left behind"...its rather intriguing...i like it a lot...its not the most well-read book but it has good realistic i deas on ( Read more... )

today was just another day at work...i stayed up all night dong nothing just to get up at eight and do it all over again...i wish i didnt have these stupid times where i just sit and think..i dont want to think i want my brain off...it makes me sad...and i dont like it...i wish i didnt feel this all the time..no matter what you know it just wont go ( Read more... )

so today was just another day..this weekend was nothing special to say the least..i hund out w/ no one sunday..i just stayed home and tried to sleep but that didnt work...today my uncle came over with his male friend conrad..it was fun there both really smart-like and we just talked for hours then we went to saltgrass...mmmm that place is great and ( Read more... )

so yea i worked friday night until 10:30 and then i got home around 11 only to wake up at 4:30 to go back to work....i was tired and stilll am but after the shift the day actually was pretty good well besides some details that werent so pleasant feeling. so i picked up eric and since it was getting late i wanted to go to rocky tonight we just went ( Read more... )

so another day has passed and it is just that...i went to work today kinda depressed over how things are going.....so i moped through the day and lunch came so instead of eating since i work 5 mins from downtown i just drove through the streets and just stared at all the peopple and the buildings and architechture of the theatre district which is ( Read more... )

I do feel sick..all day at work my stomach is just getting to me. But hey suffered through it...oh well everything seems to all go wrong at the same time...my clutch just went out on my car so now im stuck borrowing my moms car until it gets fixed...which could be a long long time since they cost so much to get them installed...oh well...what can ( Read more... )

Today was actually an good day off. I work way too much all week in fact 1p-10p everyday except sat i work in the morning yay!...but neways i woke up too early this morning so ive been up all day. I got up and went to go see steph...she is beautiful as always..we hung out fro awhile and then went to lunch with grandma....i took her to driving ( Read more... )