I'm floating. Woah! This is kind of intense. And I sure hope I don't fall. I've fallen way too many times in the past couple of weeks, and I don't think I could take another bump, bruise, or scratch.
Ugh, boys.

This, what is thing l..ive..jou..r..nal? Ohh right! It's been too long, old friend. Time to become an angsty teenager again?
We'll see if this becomes another form of deathly procrastination...again.

I can now do front and back flips off of the diving board where I work. Today I did it without a lifejacket on. I have none of you, fear! But maybe it's only masked while doing my flips because it's all spent elsewhere.
I wish I knew how to choose.

A surge of energy and impulse is rushing through me. It's hard to imagine a person hibernating, but it can happen. And suddenly winter's over and those who haven't eaten in months can finally satisfy their sleeping hunger. I think it's the sun, among other things. I think it's passion. Actually wanting to do things and go places, because they ( Read more... )

It was fate! This city's too big for something so coincidental to happen in one day. It filled that void of mine so perfectly. That longing for lack of loneliness- that certain kind of loneliness that drives me insane. At one point there's no longer need for small talk, you just know.

Just fucking around has become so complicated. It's not enough. But I'm now allowing myself anything more. But that alone makes me want more.

I'm in pain I'm in pain I'm in constant fucking pain!!!! OW. I can't bend over. I feel old and pathetic. I feel bored and useless, but that might have something to do with me not being able to move properly. SHIT!

Your conversation feels like an interrogation.
But I guess only sometimes.

I feel that I have to keep my distance from certain things. It seems unfair. I've been keeping my distance from certain things for so long- I don't want to anymore. But it's hard, because I know there are reasons why. And it's even harder because of the bad and the ugly. I have to suck it up, but I don't want to have to explain myself. And I ( Read more... )

I went rock climing today. And it was amazing! I'm feeling muscles I never knew I had, or had just forgotten about. Must go back again soon. And this isn't just about meeting hot woodsie earth muscle guys and getting laid. It was actually the first time I hadn't thought about sex in two weeks. Something to keep the hands busy ( Read more... )