Why is it always so hard to do what is right? I went to this church youth group type thing today and it just had such an impact on me. I was in it last year and it really helped me. Whenever I leave there I always leave with a feeling that everything is going to be ok. I always promise myself that I'm going to drop all my bad habits. I think I ( Read more... )

Last night was terrible. The dance was awful. Every time I turned around there was one of my exes going at it with his new girlfriend. I think I was one of the only people not drunk. After the dance was even worse. There was a group of people bowling and i was feeling kinda sick so i decided to go home. Nope, couldn't do that. Just as I got in my ( Read more... )

Once more I have the chance to be with him. Once again I am faced with the awful decision I have to make. How much of myself am I willing to give up? I'm not so sure I'm ready to go through this whole ordeal again. I have the option of being with him for just one more night, risking it all, and not knowing if we'll ever really be together or if he' ( Read more... )

To relive the memory of what has gone would be priceless.

To endure the pain of what was forgotten is forever.

To reawken myself is difficult.

To forget about it is impossible.

To keep analyzing what went wrong over and over again is inevitable.

I can't believer warp tour was a month ago. It seems like just yesterday I was getting slammed around in the mosh pits. I felt so awful that day. I had the worst head ache and kept thinking i was going to be sick. I kept praying for rain too. I had gotten 1 hour of sleep the night before so when we lost my car and then got lost on the way home I ( Read more... )

Well, today its been officialy one month since me and T. hung out. I hope today goes alright. I don't really feel like having some kind of break down in the middle of the hallway. I wish I knew what the heck was going through that boy's head. He drives me crazy. One day he's a complete ass but then yesterday I'm his "sweet little koala bear"? I ( Read more... )

Its weird how many different faces we put up for different people. Around some people we act one way and around others we act a different way. With all this role-playing do we ever have time to really be ourselves? And when we find those few people that we can truly be ourselves around will we even remember who we are or will we have put up so many ( Read more... )

I'm running out of time!! I still haven't found a ride or a date to the dance and its on saturday!!! Oh well...I can't wait till friday!! I'm going to see bowling for soup at st. andrews hall!! I'm so excited. They're my favorite band. Oh... it was so weird. Today this guy I used to be really good friends with a few years back called me. I haven't ( Read more... )

I hate it. I hate him. Last night was terrible. Everything was going so good. But I know there has to be a catch somewhere. Good things never happen to me. My luck will never change. I'll just have to deal with this fact. Why do I do this to myself over and over again?

I gave up everything I had. I have lied, cheated, and stole. There was nothing I wouldn't do. Now I am left with nothing. Not a single thing. Besides for the memory of the awful things I have done.