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if you only knew
i feel like ive grown a million years smarter and thank god i didnt commit the worst crime in the world i tried to take my own life today over a reason as simple as this girl not just any girl but a girl i loved with all my heart to long and i let it get to me it really is my fault i turned to the cowards way out and thats just plain not me im ( Read more... ) -
these days
so much has happened this yearand ive changed so much. I dont know why but lately my life has just spiraled and it feels like some times i lose control but then i get my head back. ive met some very cool and good friends this year these guys help me out the best way they can and keep me busy. I have started singing and to tell you the truth it has ( Read more... ) -
dear diary
im righting to say that today i painted my nails black then later i wrote about my fears and painful regrets i cut my dick with a razor to release the deep dark pain inside my sole then i kissed little boys and got a cool emo haire cut!!! -
Lifes a bitch
ok its been a while since ive written a journal entry. So life is alright i believe i have become a drunk it is the way to go if you have nothen to live for. I am not happy cause ive been fucking random chicks when i am drunk and regreting it. then when i regret it i want to drink some more and do it all over again HAPPY TIMES they call it. I dont ( Read more... ) -
LIFE
Ok today was a big bummer cause i really have to search deep inside myself to under stand what im feeling. I dunno why but my girlfriend yet again has dumped me i dont know how she feels but she is having a problem that she wont say and i am sad cuz it is bugging me. I guess i must let her alone about it for a while. So i must give her that space ( Read more... ) -
in da hood
Its just day of a life for a gansta in town you gots to be ready for what comes your way or you might get shanked its crazy shitz. I guess andrew is might get jumped for the scrapp he got into the other day by some of russes friends which will suck for him and me and trevor cuz iil help andrew he is my dog. well anyways i gots to roll i got drugs ( Read more... ) -
FIGHT
Ok here it goes it was a normal day at gp, untell at lunch i was finishing my cigarette and andrew came over to me and said he was gonna punch russ in the face i didnt think much about it but went with him and found russ and everyone was yelling at andrew and he was pissed almost got in a fight with like three guys. well anyways he hits russ in the ( Read more... ) -
totaly awsome day
Today was a pretty cool day i hung with a old friend at gp and at lunch we went out and smoked a couple good cigars. I started chewing tobacco but i think its grosse i didnt like it much.But yah anyways had lots of gay worksheets in science which i got done in class lol im happy but yah only four more days tell i get to see chelsea and thats awsome ( Read more... ) -
happy times
I am usaully not a very happy camper but now that i get to be with this girl i really care about im alot more happyer i can tell her just about anything and she under stands and we relate to alot of things hope that we can always be together.