So I have not talked on this shit in a while. For reasons that are mine I do now chose to speak. I have some shit to say and if you are going to come back at me with all the "well Alex..." shit I would like you to eat a fat dick right now. A few things. My knee. I got my surgery a grip of space ago. it still hurts like a bitch so i am ( Read more... )

...was how my Thanksgiving was. Slept on the couch all day... Friday too I think. Don't really remember... Had a fever... pissin out my ass... with the vomit of a thousand meals out my mouth (no... I did not eat either... but there still was a grip of puke). I think I had salmonella... or something like that mess of a word I sounded out. Food ( Read more... )

...are only in fairy tales and some massage parlors. Not in my life. I miss her too much. My heart hurts on a daily basis... and now she wants to talk to me again. Of course I will... duh. She seems to think I forgot... but I didn't... never will... and because of it cannot love another as they would deserve to be. It all hurts too much. In ( Read more... )

...because you are gone. And it hurts me to think that it will be so long before I see you again. No matter what happens... or happened i want to see you again. Promice me you will see me? Please? I mean come on... sure we fought. Sure we had it rough... but we loved each other. A lot. I just can't stand the thought I will lose you forever ( Read more... )

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...because she has not been in touch today. I know we have been having it rough what with the way they want to keep us down... but I just need to know she is ok. I mean I just need to see her message me and let me know she did not die. To tell me she loves me...well I don't need to here that... i know she does. And i love her back :) I do need ( Read more... )

First yes i am home from work today. My gut is all ten shades of fucked again... fuckin gut. Whatever right? I guess the few became one... lol. But here is the poem :P ( Read more... )

i did not sleep enough... only like 2 hours. I had a very hard night last night... but I think it was worth it. Anyway I am off to the hole I loe in to make 9 an hour workin' for the man. Shit.

Alex

...is all I feel. I am all alone in the world... I always will be too. No one wants me... no one loves me. I have such a big heart. I love so deaply... and it hurts me to know that no one ever returns that to me. I have loved so few... and yet I see it is the same every time. No one ever wants to love me like I love them. I do not hurt ( Read more... )

...I have one on. Some of you will get it... others not so much. But it is a fact still though... my heart hurts.

Alex