wow... i just went back and was reading old entries of mine and wow they are so freakin stupid... lol... well i dont think anyone reads this journal anymore but thats ok... well got to go...

1. Who are you ( Read more... )

at what point do you give up.... i always set myself up to be hurt.... i dont know.... i never do anything right it seems as if i am just a fu*k up... i try and try and nothing changes nothing matters... when do you walk away for good and call it quits.... i dont know.... any advice? not like anyone cares nite -coles xoxo

well what a day.... i went to the beach this morning hell yeah for a nice tan... i was leaving the beach and i am backing out of a parking spot and as i am backing out these old people in this jag try to speedy up and pass the truck and guess what... they werent quick enough so bam my first accident... it couldnt be any worse except my parents are ( Read more... )

here goes... i am sorry to everyone that i have hurt in the past... well not everyone just a few people... i realize that i need to change more because i am not a good person and i want to be one...i have realized alot in these last few days but not all of it needs to be read by some...i dont even know who reads this or who cares... my boyfriend ( Read more... )

the wedding was really nice...the cermony was also nice because it didnt drag on like some weddings i had been to...thank god...the party afterwards was so much fun...everyone was drinking and dancing...everyone was diffently enjoying themselves...lol...my aunt looked so pretty...the cermony was in plantation then we had to drive back ot corla ( Read more... )

thanksgiving wasnt to bad...thank god for justin he rescued me at 730 and then we went to his parents house for a bit then came home and hung out...today i watched my cousins for a little bit which wasnt bad...and now i am home but i have ot go fight the crowds at the mall because tomorrow i have a wedding to go to but i haven t bought anything to ( Read more... )

tomorrow is turkey day...so happy thanksgiving because iwill not have the chance to update tomorrow or friday...tonight i am spending the night at my parents which should be interesting... i hope we don t fight because fighting on the holidays sucks...but whatever i guess we will see...i think justin and i are gonig to be ok we talked alot last ( Read more... )

 http://journals.aol.com/coleibear03/MYLIFE    this is my aol journal... i forgot all aobut my live journal but now i have two journals to write in...no one really knows about  this journal but thats ok...whoever knows about it is welcome to read it....

why do i always end up caring about the people that dont care back. i am done caring if he doesnt care about me why care about him. i hate giving up but it looks like this time i have no choice. i dont know if i am a better person because of him or because i have grown up but it doesnt matter because for what ever reason i am a better person....54 ( Read more... )