At some point about every two months I reach a point, at witch, I slam into a wall of reality. It then becomes impossible to ignore the hellish nightmares that are the current facts in my life. I become disentangled from the hope and positive energy, to be left cold without a way to warm myself. I feel alone. Not lonely but unimaginably alone. I'm ( Read more... )

I have been a bad bad girl...and I like it. it's about time something good and interesting happened in my life. It's honest excitement for the frist time in a long time.

I'm happy again. I feel free and easy. it's amazing. yes, i'm still sick, but i'm calm. I think i'm finding a peace is finally dealing with the fact that I cna't be mad at my boby. it is not seperate from me. Just letting myself go shit happenes has made me so happy. This sounds weird but tonight I was with friends and I was in physical agony the ( Read more... )

hurting. I can't belive how bad. I hate when things seem so easy and become soo freaking hard. it's painful!

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I feel so old! I don't knwo what it is but I feel like i'm about 70 years old. All of my friends seem so young to me. No one seems to know or apreciate what they have ( Read more... )

Today I gave a movie I once made fun of for being epicly bad a second chance. Sometimes I do this. I loved it. I think that at times I judge things way too quickly. I get bored in a hurry. But I'm learning that sometimes if I just hang out for a little bit and stick with it, I can find something truely great.

I'm becoming more and more bold as the days go by. My strength is starting to make me proud again! What's next?

I am so happy. i'm in a great modd. today has been the best day in so long. I went to the High with my family and looked at beauty all morning, then went to see Enchanted which was amazing and made me smile and laugh and happy. Then I went to Brandon's and hung out with friends and played with my new camera, and ended the day with talking to people ( Read more... )

I'm really sick of being sick. I vomit half of what i eat. Today was a bad day. i didn't keep anything down at all. I'm weak. I pass out all the time. I keep hurting myself when that happens too. i'm in pain all the time. By body just hurts. I shake. I can't hold anything for any length of time becasue of it. I don't sleep. This is no way to live. ( Read more... )