I find myself with a deep needs to do things that will make me happy. The problem is, when I do them, I don't necessarily feel "happy," and I can't decide if that is because I am really not happy or because I don't really remember what true happiness feels like ( Read more... )

Did you know that I am awesome?
this is what I'm telling myself today. I've had a bad two days involving a stupid boy and how I feel about him and how he isn't sure he feels. So, I am awesome and there is nothing more to that.

I was thinking the other day about how I never write anymore, and how I only seem to write poetry when I am either deeply sad ( Read more... )

in the absence of my health I've been doing a lot of thinking ( Read more... )

woke up with a stupid sore throat and now my plans to drive to Elon tonight are shot. I guess it's for the best, since I have to be at work at 8am tomorrow anyway. Also I just have so much crap to do, it's unreal. so much extra design work. I really want to stop working for my mom, but last time I tried that she cried ( Read more... )

would you stand up, and walk out on me?While everything piles up, stacking one on top of the other, it becomes difficult sometimes to remember that the air that is filling our lungs is not the only thing that is keeping us alive. It is our drive, our pure passion and our love for others that sustain life ( Read more... )

some times I feel as though my body is slowly going into hibernation, and that soon, at some point, I will just sleep forever ( Read more... )

so, last night was pretty fucking amazing.
just a few things:

he said, "you're great. you don't have to worry at all."
he said "I like you." when I said, "I won't feel bad about this unless you give me a reason to feel bad ( Read more... )

Press check today! lots to do! moving forward moving out. I need some coffee first ( Read more... )

there was a magic in the air last night that cannot be explained. When we left Julie's house, the air just smelled sweeter than it has in a long time. Like the wind was trying to tell me to just breathe ( Read more... )

I love my friends.

best. birthday. ever.