ever since Megan was a little girl
she dug a hole to hide from the world.
Each year the hole got deeper
because of all the promises no one could keep her.
But then one day she got so enfuried,
she thrashed at the hole's walls until she was buried.

chris's new job is really getting the best of me via chris's horrible mood swings. I feel like we're back to our first year together. He goes off on me for every little thing. I just don't even want to talk to him because I don't feel like getting yelled at for stupid minor things. i'm supposed to move in within two weeks. i don't wanna live ( Read more... )

Snow tomorrow. Blizzard watch. I hope it does snow. And sasquatch could walk on the lawn and i could build and ice castle and we can have a snowball fight. Then I could go inside and make a gingerbread house and drink hot cocoa. I have no money to go to the city although I would love to go. My money situation is far from pleasing. I don't ( Read more... )

pat's in rehab and that feeling is wonderful. to have her out of the house. i fuckin hate her with my entire being. i don't think i have ever hated somebody so much. i just never want her to come back and i know she will. and i can't wait til she starts with me so i can get her back. gah ( Read more... )

i wish my parents could have enough money to pay for me to go to school or atleast for my books like everybody else's parents. yeah. that would be nice.

I hurt myself today ( Read more... )

don't get me wrong. things are good. i just feel numb to pretty much everything and i can't really say why cuz i have no fuckin idea why. i just do. maybe i've just reached a breaking point where ya just stop feeling...? or maybe i'm just bored of anything and everything ( Read more... )

today. bright and early. chris and his dad came over to help me move pretty much everything. so now i'm back in medford and it's somewhat bittersweet. and it's strange because for the majority of the time i was in moriches i really just wanted to be here. and now that i'm here i miss moriches. maybe it was just the space and the apartment and my ( Read more... )

i really should be sleeping. it'll only be harder for me to wake up in the morning. today i had the most horrible...painful cramps. it was a throwback from highschool and middle school where it would hurt so bad i'd just curl up in pain. i was expecting this. it's better than an infection and i am highly relieved ( Read more... )

i don't feel supa dupa fly. nope. not at all today. instead i feel overwhelmed, stressed out, aggrivated, exhausted ( Read more... )