This sucks. I can't believe how badly i miss you.
Maybe it was the way you made me feel about myself, or maybe the way you always cared. But I know for sure those were easily the best four months. I wish I knew why I can't have you, I wish i knew why it actually ended.
Sigh.

i'm so glad i decided to randomly make a new group of friends.
i guess deep down i knew my current group would drop me quickly and i was correct.
my little heart hurts, i wont lie.

im also overly happy to have my big gay man back in my life, and slowly getting lea back too! old best friends are the best kind.

i honestly don't know what i'm doing or what i want

God damn, after dealing with two extremely crazy ex girlfriends.. I have realized I am not and have never been an actual crazy girlfriend or ex girlfriend.

I want to tell you that I miss you, but I don't ( Read more... )

i forgot what being alone and happy felt like

I miss you and i hate my self so much for that ( Read more... )

I guess thats that.

Back to square one. Back to having nobody and spending my life working and coming home to being alone and depressed.

i miss my parents so fucking much.

I hope everything is okay with us. I feel the distance again. I see it too.