Everything is good.

I have my cat. I have my man. I have health. I have my happiness.

I'd do anything for you.

wish more people used live journal.

I really miss having friends,
having someone to text all the time and who wants to hangout sometimes.

I hate the loneliness that is consuming me

wahhh my brain feels like its going to melt and my heart is so broken ( Read more... )

I forgot to update, everything went well. I was really nervous, as one would be.

Its too bad I am too scared to tell my 'friends' about any of this, they will judge me so hard.
Oh well, its over now.

Tomorrow is friday the 13th.
i will be freaking out all day.
My thing is at 10am.
and i couldn't be more nervous.

I pray its not as painful as everyone says.
And I hope i'm okay afterwards.

Sigh.

i can't believe how inconsiderate people can be when they know my situation and what i'm going through. nothing can ever be about just me, ever.
I'm starting to feel like i'm meant to be alone, it seems easier that way.

i am not looking forward to this one bit. i wish i had people to talk to .

Lying in bed, cuddled up together, with the heater blowing on our faces. Playing silly games together for hours, promising each other we will be okay. We both know,that everything is not okay, but we have to convince each other. Keep each other whole, he's so good at this. He can tell before I start to pout even a little, that I am about to catch ( Read more... )