not dead yet

I do a counseling group for teens who have babies. I found out one of my clients is in the eighth grade, the other 17 with a one year old. I try to think of when I was that age. I was boiling pencils and burning newspapers in my kitchen just to see what would happen. I was jumping through hotel room hallways because i was kissed for the first time ( Read more... )

its been a weird weekend.  but, as always... they are showing my apartment again.  i did not clean it up this time i am so sick of it.  people in and out all day long.  i wanted to have a sunday watching movies and crap but the caled and said someone was coming, but i was like eh, ill just stay in my pj pants.  well, its been over an hour and 5 ( Read more... )

one of the few people in my program who was really nice to me died today.  i dont know what i feel.  a lot of people from my program went to the hospital.  i would go, or would have, when she was still in the coma and on life support, but now i guess i feel its weird to go.  people keep going, but i dont know if her family really needs a lot of ( Read more... )

never in my life have i wanted to vomit so much.  not because i need to, but so that someone will believe that i am sick and not just bi-polar.   i am sick guys.  i slept for 24 hours and im still tired, my head is throbbing, i feel weak,i have a fever, i cant focus, holding my head up is hard work.  all i want to do is cry.  i have no one who will ( Read more... )

i am more than a fucking diagnosis godd damnit ( Read more... )

my head is spinning and everything is going in slow motion.  i cant even focus on this screen for more than a few seconds.  tv is worse because its moving.  my temperature is like 97 degrees. what the hell is ahppeneng?

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relationships are like fireworks, loud and explosive and liable to maim you if you hold on too long.

(i knew i loved sven, the womanizing songwriter)