Part of me says its time to fucking grow up. Another part of me just isnt ready to stop having fun. The last part of me is scared shitless in the corner of a dark room afraid to move.

For this first time today I thought that moving out to Arizona like this was a mistake ( Read more... )

Why can i never have crushes on girls that i have a chance with?

She was the best thing for me back then.
Now she haunts me everywhere I go.
I have no idea what to do with you, you're not even here yet you wont go away.
I don't want to care but I do.
I don't know what I would do if anything were to ever happen to you;
Turn myself in I guess.

I wouldnt change a single thing that has ever happened to me until this weekend. Now I would do anything to redo this trainwreck of an event.

I stand in the shadow of my own downfall waiting for it to reign down upon myself waiting for the savior that will never come.

I'm falling apart. Stress is takings its toll on my body, going to get blood work done tomorrow is proof of that in itself. I'm probably going back into therapy again ( Read more... )

2 interests again...
of course.
neither of which or even remotely serious, but one can dream.
doctor tomorrow, later rather. i'm afraid of what he can tell me.
i'm afraid of what he can't.

I'm addicted to being an addict.
Will you be my next addiction?

I only like girls I don't know. They're more exciting.