I thought that almost 2 weeks after Dylan's death i'd be doing a little better ( Read more... )

i hit a deer ( Read more... )

boys suck...

at least the ones i've ever dated.

let's emphasize, boys SUCK!

what's the deal with dating ( Read more... )

hello all! haven't been on here in a while. slow dial up ( Read more... )

well an old friend just called. and he wants me to model for his friend's band's cd booklet. he is the creativity designer or what not and a photographer. and the theme would be a guy and girl, telling a story through photographs, backwards. i dunno, he said he could only think of me when he had this idea. he thinks it's the long dark hair... ( Read more... )

it's 1:24 in the morning, my boyfriend is sleeping b/c he has to get up at 6:30 to go to work... i'm not used to that yet. i don't think i'll ever get used to it ( Read more... )

today was good.
a great concert with a good friend i hadn't really spent time with in awhile.
i hope he's ok. i really do.

i love life right now.
life is either full of shit or smiles.
right now, it's smiles.

i love my friends, they are my family.
i hope they know how much they mean to me.

"My supernatural gift might reside not in my mind but instead in my heart. The heart is an artist that paints over what profoundly disturbs it, leaving on the canvas a less dark, less sharp version of the truth."

Dean Koontz

i spin me around again and rub my eyes...
this can't be happening...
oily marks appear on walls...so fresh...
where PLEASURE MOMENTS HUNG BEFORE!
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity...
of this, still life...

1stepforward, 2stepsback..... = my life