so I get word that my step father who is a pastor might get shifted to a different city and church.  This means the house I grew up in will be empty.  I had wanted to run again and put distance between myself and the reason I want to move but I now have to stick around.  If he does get moved I have to look after the house.  This is still a year ( Read more... )

the therapist asked me to write down what I was think when I thought of my new recent ex again.  The only thought that sticks with me is the moment I had in Florida.  It was after our final break up that I moved to Florida and I was sitting outside one night about a year later.  The night was very nice and the water was slowly moving in the canal ( Read more... )

Its funny how it takes a major shake up in my life before I realize what the problem is.  Recently I moved back to the state I left to be with the woman I left the state over.  At first things were great, minus the fact I was holding back.  She was everything she had said she was.  It was my personal issue that broke us up this time ( Read more... )

Love has a strange way of affecting us and to lose someone we love, sometimes, it is almost unbearable.  We stop thinking about others and we focus on our internal pain.  But this is something that can bring us all closer together.   We all have that aching hole of sorrow that just seems to be too big to fill.  We need to remember there are ( Read more... )

not much has changed.  but I wanted to post something so I did

I was told that some groups of ass fucks wanted to take the word Christ out of Christmas and just use Happy Holidays insted. Now I dont buy into xmas too much nor do I follow a religion. But I know what it means to other and how special the day is. Remove christ and you remove the very reason we are here, freedom to express your religion. Take ( Read more... )

"am I sick" I asked ( Read more... )

when i open my eyes she alway seems to disappear ( Read more... )

Hope ( Read more... )

open your eyes. what do you see?. Do you see your self? do you see yourself looking at yourself. The mirror before you holds no mysteries nor does it hide the secrets you come to love. This is real. you have done this. to yourself, to them. that is your sword in your hand. That is their blood on your sword, your hair, your hands, my face ( Read more... )