life
sucks
girls
break hearts
depression overcomes u
the blade
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your wrist
warmth
the blood
seeping
down the wrist
pain

i want to die i hate everything. my life just came crashing down in my face. i no longer am able to wake up happy to know someone cares for me now i'm gunna wake up knowing that the only reason that i didn't cut myself is gone. no more happy feelings. i don't know.......... i opened up to her to much. i let my emotions get out and now i'm hurt more ( Read more... )

this whole weekend i swam. i sucked all day saturday. on sunday i scratched out of my 200 free then i swam my 50 free and i was against Greg Palmer (i haven't lost to him since the bigging of summer) he has a better time then i do. i beat him i don't know how i did it. i didn't have it in me to be agressive yet some how i managed to pull myself ( Read more... )

y a a a a a a a y i g e t t o f i n a l w r i t e i n m y j o u r n a l. i h a t e m y m a t h t e a c h. s h e t o o k m y w r i t i n g n o t e b o o k. t h A T l i t t l e b i t c h. w e l l u m y a o k s w i m m i n g s t a t e s i s o n s a t u r d a y i ' m s o p h y c e d f o r i t. i ' m g u n n a d o m y ( Read more... )

fuck ya my day rocked. i had a swim meet where handed out some ass kickings. i beat a kid whos beat me every fuckin time we race. today was my time and i did my job. i came in 2nd overall only missing 1st by .02 seconds thats what i call home pool advantage. he was on the home team. overall i beat their ass' to a point that they should have begged ( Read more... )

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay snow day. this is awsome no school. i felt like a fuckin re this morning. i went to swim prac. like normal but when i got home to pick up mini-heather his mom yelled there was no school i felt so stupid that i didn't know that i almost left him and almost went to pick up mandy that would have made me feel even ( Read more... )

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah today is awsom i got my concert tickets. i'm so happy i get to go with my girlfiend and my little sister racheal and her B/F. we're going to see My Chemical Romance. they are so good. well other than that today sucked. i can't find any teacher who needs an aid first period. if thisn shit continues i'm just gunna ( Read more... )

yaaaaaaaaaay i finally found time to write in my journal more. mesa happy today. not sick anymore. just the normal aches and pains. tomorrow is my swim meet yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. i get to show that even after a week of no practice i can still kick ass well i'm happy i ,ight be able to hang with my girlfriend tonight. even better no ( Read more... )

this freakin sucks i've been sick for 2 days. i have fuckin bed sores from all the time i have been sleeping. i think in the last 48 hours i've spent at least 24 of them sleeping. well that sucks but what sucks even more i got my girlfriend sick so on top of being sick i also feel bad for getting her sick. i need to get better by saturday i have a ( Read more... )

ya um i dunno. i'm so f-ing board. i don't wanna go to school tomorrow. i wanna spend it sleeping and drinking.(no leafy not alchool)i wanna just sleep but no i have to study. i just don't know anymore. i can't stop my mind from thinkin thoughts that i know arn't try. I'll give an example> This happend along time ago so don't worry Autumn i got ( Read more... )