Well I am sorry it has been so long. I went to Cali for Easter. I saw all of my friends it was grand I really enjoyed it. The most intersting thing though was I saw Chalice. We talked and I cried. We decided to put things behind us and at least be friends to one another. I think this will do a world of help for us both we never had this ( Read more... )

So it is my turn to be hurt by Chalice this time around. I know we are broken up but with the things she told me it hurts that she slept with someone. Someone who is suposedly my friend and Chalic and I's bestfriends x who she still loves and wants to be with. On top of it all she acts like this is an innocent act and that she shouldn't feel bad ( Read more... )

So I just realized it has been a week since I posted. My God!! That aside Chalice and I remain as always. This week has been very boring for me. Work has been uneventful studying for a test that I took today and got a 97.44 yay me. Then we did p.t. and I want to cry. We ran 5.5 miles in about 40 minutes. Needless to say I hurt very much so ( Read more... )

Well the other day Chalice and I decided that we needed to be completely broken up...again. I dont know why but I cannot make my self get over her right now. I will try and then I start thinking about missing her and cannot help it then I start to fight to try and get her back and then I feel like I have pushed her further away. It is a very sad ( Read more... )

Hey I wanted to post here I am sorry it has taken me a few days. I have never been big on writing the things downt hat I do. Over the weekend I saw 300. Fabulous!! The movie has restored my faith in hollywood. I also went to a club and the music was mediocore but also the quaility of the sound was great. I had an alright time. Sunday I just ( Read more... )

Well Yesterday was Monday which means Field day......lots of cleaning for you unmilitary people. So that was the extent of my day after class. We all passed room inspections this morning though which is very great. Chalice and I have been making more and more progress as we talk it is like friends going though a rough spot almost which is joyous ( Read more... )

Sorry it has been a few days that I have not written. I have been running aorund. Well two days ago I decided that Chalice wanted us to be seperate like totally. She didnt want us on the path to togetherness again. So I did the only thing I could do. I told her that we need to be totally seperate. So I did the hardest thing I have I let her ( Read more... )

Well last night after I wrote in here I spoke with Chalice and my padiwan and a few other people. It helped and hurt. Chalice helped me see how she looked at the sins I committed which were much more significant then how I had seen them before. I thought about those things for the rest of the night unable to sleep. I went to work and emotional ( Read more... )

So I have decided that I hope keeping this will help me sort out my life and fix the problems that have accured in my life and in myself. I have to start with who I am. I am Combat Bahb(Robert by birth.) I am a 24 year old marine currently stationed in NC. I rave and spin fire poi. I am into BDSM and lots of other things that are less important ( Read more... )