i thought you're supposed to get dizzy when you don't eat and today i actually ate lunch..and then ran into walls and tripped and those lovely dizzy things. i don't know if i can make myself walk to the library like this ( Read more... )

i regret so much. and the worst part is there will be no next time in order to fix things...do them like i tried but better. talk more. always try to explain myself and understand you. manage to make you see how much i care.

this hole in me grows and grows. i think it takes up more space than i do now.

i think i have been complimented more today than in the past four months ( Read more... )

i got my pictures from costa rica developed. some of them are so beautiful. i wish everyone could go there and see it for real, though. it's so much more amazing that way. i guess everyone wants the people they love to be able to see and experience the wonderful things they themselves have experienced. y verdadero, te extrañé antes. te extraño, ( Read more... )

it was not in its (once) rightful spot. it was clean and folded and just looked like laundry. seeing that almost made me cry.

it is 9:30 p.m. now. i fell asleep on the couch at 9:18. i am tired. to bed i go.

i hope you're not scared to know you're always on my mind.

i should be doing productive, necessary things. homework, laundry, showering. i think i caught up on sleep, at least ( Read more... )

why this song? why? why? why all these songs right now. beautiful day. she will be loved. collide. without you. i am gasping for air and no one is there to notice. and things will never be the same.

it's 11:11 and i have nothing to wish for. just all this to... i don't know.

i don't know.

the sky cracked open like she'd never seen before. the background was unchanged - the same completely clouded sky. white, pale gray if she was lucky, was what she had grown accustomed to seeing ( Read more... )

i got a flower today.

i was really happy. still am. not the giant smiley kinda happy. that's not me, usually. just the smile and feel really good kind. i need to pack though.

love,

me.