hey people, sorry if my last post was a little hardline. i get a little wacky sometimes. anyway, i just got back from DC and spent the last two days at awesome conferences and meeting cool people. last night i had sex in a church!!! she was a sweet jewish+genderqueer punk grrl from NJ with a hawk and cool eyeglasses. even now shes the only thing on ( Read more... )

i just found out that my 16 year old nephew, who has a 7th grade education, no job, mental illness, anger problems and a record the size of john gottis, is having a baby. with a 20 year old ( Read more... )

when i do heroin i drink my coffee black ( Read more... )

the times have ben sad. i feel like the whole world it turning its back on me. people are listening, but i feel like i cant be helped. i just want to dissapear. now.

what the fuck man...just when i thought i was over ryans death, i called my mom to tell her how happy i was that i have discorvered the glory of cup noodles. then she informs me that my cousin troy killed himself tonight ( Read more... )

i am back in raleigh. its been such a sad time. i didnt expect rtans death to hit me so hard. i thought id be over it by now but i am not. i stayed in my room all day and now i am going to hang out with melanie. she is my everything, that girl. i want to die in her arms. nobody wants to hang out with me. it makes me sad. terminal illnesses make me ( Read more... )

i am in philly now in my aunts basement. i just ate curried goat and cabbage with beans and rice, something i crave whenever i come home. as well as a chicken cheesesteak with pickles onions ketchup and mayonaisse. and herrs ketchup flavored chips. and a tastycake ( Read more... )

my nine year old cousin died last week. im still mourning him while heavily debating flying/taking a train to philadelphia for the funeral. if i went id have to go tomorrow. nobody in my family is talking to me. i wonder why ( Read more... )

i just got back from the hospital. im coughing up blood.

this new years kicked ass. thank melanie.

yesterday i had to leave work early cuz i was so sick. anyway i am going to megans to take care of her sick dog.

jen added me! yay!!!!

my arms are killing me. i knew i was going to at least halfway regret this. it is 345am and i have to work at 8am. i couldnt find a ride so i am stealing anas bike and shit...she will kill me i know...but whats better, her getting up at 745am to drive me to work or her not having to wake up at all ( Read more... )