I no longer like dreams they tell too much of reality. I want dreams that are good dreams. The ones where everythign good happens to you . Arghhhhhh reality bites sometimes i want to fast forward life

why bother......................life................mine's a waste

OMG I can't believe how good it feels to run. I just got back from a swim meet where I was horrible as usual because I hate it but when I got home I had the sudden urge to run. I ran for an hour and did 3 miles I feel awesome now i'm not tired or anything and I feel happier than I have in a long time goodness i should do this more often!!

OK so today started out awesome. I woke up from this great dream that made me happy to no other. But then of course I woke up and realized of course that none of it was real :( tear for me! Oh well it made me sad but at the same time to memory of the dream mad e me happy (even though I knew it wouldn't ever be true!) After the awesome dream I ( Read more... )

OK so i hate how i always have problems with the guys i like. I can never get my timing right i never like them at the same time as they like me and its a never ending cycle. For example right now i have the HUGEST Acrush on this guy and does he like me?...........................no of course not. But did he evr like me yes but i was too dumb to ( Read more... )

I don't know whats worse not going out or feeling really out of place when you do

So i was talking to my mom the other day after swim practice As i walked through the door she handed me yet another flyer thingy from another college this time it was from Eastern telling me about how wobderful their school is and how i should go there. My mom was like so where is it you want to go Courtney ? You know we should probably start ( Read more... )

so i ahte beong the only one without a date but what am i gonna do

it amazes me by how the people that were once best friends with you can come out to your face months later and say that you completely bug them am i really that horrible of a person

I remmeber when it used to be me that people wanted to hang out with not me wanting to hang out with them now it seems as if i can't deal with things that i've caused but in the long run i'm just waiting for this time in my life to be over waiting until i can grow up and chose the things that i love and want to do I just want this time to be over ( Read more... )