Awww, the poor boys, it's all starting to make sense now. That's why it felt familiar and right to Howard... how terribly sad that they have all those shared experiences that Howard now doesn't remember, or only remembers in bits.
And Precious being Vince (or vice versa) is a genius idea and should definitely be canon!
It was nothing like his romantic fantasies of his 'first time', but he felt safe and wanted, and when Howard came on his belly, Vince felt strangely powerful. He didn't feel tiny and ineffective. He felt special.
This goes back to what I was saying in the previous chapter's review about how Howard and Vince are so drawn to each other because they make each other feel special--and empowered--and it's one of those sections of the story that touches me, every time I read it. It's just a bit heartbreaking here, what Vince's thoughts here say, both about his connection to Howard and about what's lacking elsewhere in his life, that he's so taken with the feeling of being safe, wanted, powerful, special. And Howard makes him feel that way, when probably nobody else does.
"Look, Howard, you never pretended it was anything other than it was
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And I almost forgot to mention it, but I have to leave some love for that brilliant, brilliant line about Vince imagining himself as an actor playing Vince, when he's telling the truth about what happened on the island, to try and feel just a little bit more distant and less exposed. It's SUCH a perfect description of the way I imagine Vince trying to handle painful, vulnerable moments, or cover them up--because if he's an actor playing Vince, it's not as real and immediate and scary, and he has some control, and he can show what he wants to reveal and hide what he needs to hide. It's just one of those lines that shows how deeply you understand the characters!
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And Precious being Vince (or vice versa) is a genius idea and should definitely be canon!
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This goes back to what I was saying in the previous chapter's review about how Howard and Vince are so drawn to each other because they make each other feel special--and empowered--and it's one of those sections of the story that touches me, every time I read it. It's just a bit heartbreaking here, what Vince's thoughts here say, both about his connection to Howard and about what's lacking elsewhere in his life, that he's so taken with the feeling of being safe, wanted, powerful, special. And Howard makes him feel that way, when probably nobody else does.
"Look, Howard, you never pretended it was anything other than it was ( ... )
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