I believe things should be handed to me, or sometimes I think that I expect more then is actually there. Maybe I think to much into people, situation, anything. I'm not really sure. I have gotten used to being let down, are my reason bullshit or would other people be let down also. I seem to be able to think even a song has more meaning for ( Read more... )

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Today is slow. So slow I can't explain. It's 2:00am. I feel as if I have been up for days. I wish I could sleep. Maybe I'll shower.

Tonight was a very good night. Yes infact I loved tonight. It rocked. But, yesterday was a good night UNTILL I started watching this movie on 23 and it is called Malice yeah well I fell asleep and need to know how it ends. AHHH it's killing me. Did she give him the money? Did the police find out she was a liar? Oh god the suspense. Wow my ( Read more... )

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Fucking awesome no buts about it. I got to just relax with Erik and watch a movie with no fighting no nothing just enjoying eachother. Cuddling is the shizzle. Rock on.

Exactly how does one go about sucking a fuck?

That there really isn't a point to me worrying about things constantly like I do. If what is happening that might be. Oh fucking well. There isn't anything I could or will do about it. From now on I decided I am going back to my care-free self that everyone used to remember me as. I have changed so much in my eyes and knowing that makes me ( Read more... )

I was just outside smoking and shivering and my lighter wouldn't light and it is windy and snowy and suddenly I got a flash back to that commercial where the kid it trying to light his cigarette in the cold and it's like only one thing would make you go out in weather like this or something like that. Yeah so I'm just another stupid fucking ( Read more... )

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