so good luck to you. i say i wish you both well in your lives together. i dont mean it but i say it with a smile. the feelings are settling and i have started coming to terms with beign alone. i've been alone before. but never like this. never felt so betrayed. so hurt. i have never felt so foolish. and now i feel even more foolish for crying. for ( Read more... )

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keep waiting for the door to open. it wont open though. the more you need someone to be there for you, the less likely it is that they will be. so many years of friendship gone in one quick flash. i couldnt have been a bigger fool. i couldnt have been more wrong. i know better. i dont let people get close to me, cuz then they have the power to hurt ( Read more... )

what thefuck is my problem. how in hell can i be so upset about someone. i have too much going on in my life and i am starting to feel like i am drowning. i am trying to keep my head above water but fuck my arms and legs are getting tired. i dont know what i want. i dotn know what i have. i dont know where i am going. i feel like i am wahign a ( Read more... )

ok so for a few brief days i was in love. like really and truely in love. it was really great. i knew it couldnt last. i knew he would go back to her, they always do. i am not made for competition. i have nothing to offer. i am not fun. i have no money. i raise kids alone. i am not pretty. far from entertaining. and very needy. i have love. so much ( Read more... )

who would have though i could be so happy. he makes me happy. he makes the kids happy. the bitch still calls all the time trying to start fights. i know he will go back to her. he always does. but for the time of now i havehim and he makes me so dam happy. could i ask for more? he makes me feel good about myself. he makes me feel special. i know ( Read more... )

my kids are my life. they are all i live for. i'm not a good mother, i know this. but to tell me i dont even care about them. i would give my life for my kids. i have a life because of my kids. the thoughts running in my head. how could anyone ever want to take the only thing in my life that has ever been right. how could they try to take my one ( Read more... )

they tel you things will be ok and that it gets better. and you in turn tell others the same. its easy to put on a happy face every morning and tell everyone the sun will always be shinning and that life is great. at night when you are alone, and there is no one else to focus on, and no smiles left,and you are al alone again.thats when it happens. ( Read more... )