ok so i dont really ever write here because i am a bitch. ok so its not because i am a bitch i am just a fucking psycho. when i realized more then one person was reading it it was kinda odd. I dont talk about whats going on in my life because there is nothng to talk about. day to day shit is boring. and as much as i love my kids and i think ( Read more... )

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so i havent written here in something like forever. i am pretty sure its because i am not sure why i am here to begin with. but seeing how i got the complaint that no one ever knows whats going on here it all is. i am pregnant with what they tell me is a girl. i am leaving for cali in a day to go to my sisters wedding and be all happy for her ( Read more... )

one of the hardest thing for me is stayin friends with him. he hurt me before. broke my heart, and i dont thin he even realizes it. he was the first in so long i wanted. not that wanted me cuz thats all they had offered. not someone around just cuz. i really wanted him. he made me smile. listened to me. made me feel important. and one day he was ( Read more... )

it is really funny to me that around the holidays you always hear from people that you havent heard from all year. they are nice and loving as if they have been there the whole time. where were they when you needed them though. its great to have a lot of friends, but i hate them all. i dont call them or see them because i cant be bothered anymore. ( Read more... )

so we decided i would move on the first of the year. i can finish up this semester of school and we can really take our time figuring shit out. i havent really told anyone yet in the family cuz i dont really know what they will say about me moving to GA. they will all think i am crazy and to move for a guy.....thats just insane to them and why to ( Read more... )

so we have been talking about it for awhile that i should move down to GA i want out of ehre so badly i hate being in RI and am going to move anyway> he will be supportive and helpful to me and my family> we get along really well one of the few people i think would be able to deal with living with me most important he loves me he wants to be ( Read more... )

ok so i really love him and all. he treats me well, and is really good to my kids.that is all that i really care about anymore. one cant expect too much at this point of the game. you get hurt enough times and then you completely shut down. so that one person manages to get through that 10 foot high wall you have built and get to your heart. i do ( Read more... )

and i say hey
what a wonderful kind of day
we can learn to laugh and play
and get along with each other
you've got to listen to your heart
listen to the beat
listen tothe rythm
rythm of your fett
its a simple mssg
coming straight from the heart
believe in yourself
thats the place to start

it is truley amazing to me how you can be having such a god awful day and then someone unexpecdely remembers you, smiles at you, hugs you, or maybe just says hi. half the time they dont even realize what an impact they have had on your day. i dont think they ever realize how good they make you feel. i strive to one day one of those people. to ( Read more... )